Two Years …

It was March 31, 2008 that I got the results of the routine bloodwork that eventually led to Bryce’s cancer diagnosis.

In dogs, Multiple Myeloma has an average survival time of 540 days. We’re at 730 and counting and I’m thankful for every single one of them. Bryce is in clinical remission and as of his latest bloodwork his globulins were about where they were back when he was healthy. For today, life is good.

They say there’s a positive side to everything, so sitting in traffic yesterday seemed like a good opportunity to ponder this. Aside from the stress and vet bills, what has Bryce’s cancer given him and given me?

Possibly the strangest thing that’s come out of this for me is in agility. Sometime during the course of Bryce’s cancer I’ve finally developed … a mental game! Prior to that, I had a long history of getting nervous and screwing up any time something important to me was on the line. And believe me, there’s nothing to put on the pressure like knowing you’re running on borrowed time! But somehow the need to come through for Bryce, knowing that I might never have another chance, has helped me break past that better than any imagery exercises, affirmations or other sports coaching tricks have ever been able to do.

As for Bryce – Bryce is never taken for granted. Ever. Two years of extra attention, extra love, extra cookies … OK, he was always a little spoiled and now he’s gotten REALLY spoiled :). But when life’s busy and you have a houseful it’s hard not to sometimes just let things chug along as you go about your silly human business while some illogical part of your brain reassures you that they’ll always be there and there will be plenty of time for them “when you’re done”.

They won’t. And you’ll never be “done”.

I’m not taking my others for granted as much as before either. Or the people in my life.

I think that’s all good.

Snowy CPE – Weekend Report

We almost got snowed out! Thursday and Friday everyone in the area got from over 1 foot to over 2 feet of snow. Some people lost power. I had to dig myself out of a snowbank almost up to my waist (plowed in by my town). But then the sun came out, the snow began to melt and the trial was on :)!

Jayda Narrows the Q-Count

Jayda brought her “C-ATCH Countdown” from 15 down to 9, finishing her requirements in Wildcard and FullHouse and Q’ing twice in Standard and Jumpers. She may also finish a couple of individual class championships before the C-ATCH. The courses were trappy and tricky all weekend and the times were tight so I was very proud of her.

Bryce Beat Jayda by 2″ in Jumpers!

Even though he stopped to shake out his fur following a messy rear cross! Of course this was also the last run of the weekend – Jayda’s 10th and his 2nd – so Jayd was a little tired, but his speed was decent, his turns were tight and he had a good time showing everyone that he’s still “da man” :).

Rrrraven Rrrrrocked!

She’s just getting better and better and a little more mature every trial. We had bobbles here and there, but all just green-dog / new team kinds of things. Overall she was fast and attentive, finishing her CL2-F and CL2-H titles, getting her first Level 3 Q (in jumpers), and ended with an awesome 1st place, 53 point Jackpot run.

Not that we don’t still have things to work on – I learned that she has about 2 un-reinforced teeters in her. (I asked for a third one and almost didn’t get it.), our rear crosses stink, and I really need to work on collecting her AFTER she runs (she doesn’t always want to stop and leave!) but she’s starting to look really nice!

I love this quote -

No matter how much you wish they were normal at the beginning, every next day and every next year, you love them more for what they are.

Silvia Trkman, talking about her dog Bu (“News” page).

The Weekend Part II – Jayda and Raven

The other weekend may have been All About Bryce, but the girls deserve a mention too :)

Jayda qualified in 9 out of 10 runs and finished her CL4-S title – now she’s completely out of Level 4! The best thing is she was really HAPPY this weekend, especially on Sunday! She had that big Jayda grin that I know and love on her face all day long and was eager to come out and run every run. I’ve NEVER seen her that happy or that confident at a trial before but I hope I see more of it!

Jayda CPE 01 2010

Jayda’s not all that far from a C-ATCH of her very own. She’s a lot closer than Bryce was at this time last year!

Raven had a great day Saturday, going 4 for 4 – she was wonderful and all-in-all looking pretty mature! Sunday? Uh – not so much. There was a very “baby-dog” run in Jackpot, 2 really good runs (Colors and Wildcard) …and then there was Standard…

Raven CPE 01 2010

(Don’t laugh at her bad hair day – she was rolling around on the sofa before I took this and got a bad case of static cling! She also needs to take posing lessons from Jayda.)

Where was I? Oh yes – Sunday. After years of “drop and run”, I’ve been TRYING to get back into doing an occasional leadout with Raven. We do them in class, the course was perfect for a leadout, I decided to go for it.

Set her up and led out. She stayed in place and was watching me attentively. Released her … and she took off BEHIND me like a shot to make up her very own 5 obstacle wrong-course!

Leadouts – bah! WA-A-A-AY overrated, if you ask me :)!

Cute as it was, after that start we were pretty much toast, though the rest of the run was not without moments of brilliance. Overall, I was very pleased with her. Most of her qualifying runs she was working close to 4YPS and I think that number will go up as she gains confidence and experience. (Among other things, she has a very “bouncy” running style which eats up time – but she’s starting to flatten it out a little). She’s only 2 years old – not all that mature for her age, and only been trialing for a few months. She’s already come a long way.

So there you have it – the recap of a pretty exciting weekend!

Long ago I made a promise to Bryce that we would finish at least one agility championship together. At one time, I had my eye on several, but that wasn’t to be. I’m happy with this one and I’ll just have to save those other goals for the next generation!

A quick shout out to “Team Brycey” – all our friends and supporters in the agility community, his doctors, David at Advanced Canine for putting his BACK back together, and his “Aunties” and “Granny” – Tracey, Pat, Bernadette and Toni – for being a shoulder to cry on when things weren’t going so well and for helping ME keep it together the last couple of years! And to CPE – for providing a venue with something for everyone and for giving me the opportunity to keep a promise to a friend.

The “official” photo

C-ATCH Bryce - 1/24/10

Bryce just would NOT look at the camera!

If you’re wondering about the light object in the foreground, that’s his beloved duckie. He’s taken it everywhere since he was about 4 yrs old, I thought it was only right that it got to share his special moment :).

Bryce’s Big Weekend – The Recap

We don’t have our “official” pix yet, but here’s one I snapped of Bryce with his C-ATCH ribbon … and his friend Hat, who thought it was actually a CAT-CH :) . An honest mistake. (Bryce wasn’t in a posing kind of mood and he’s horribly out of coat besides so it’s a pretty crappy picture, but for now it will have to do.)

C-ATCH Bryce (and CAT-CH Hat)
I went into last weekend feeling pretty good. I’d managed to get an appointment with Bryce’s physical therapist the Monday before and he had cleared him to run. We’d been doing our walks twice a day, and Bryce seemed to be feeling pretty good. The bonus was that the weather was supposed to be decent (for January in the tri-state area). We had two chances to get that remaining Jackpot Q.

When there are 2 Jackpot runs in a CPE trial, I think one of them HAS to be a “non-traditional” Jackpot, which is *usually* (depends on the judge) easier than the “traditional” kind. My plan was to avoid contacts as much as possible for the sake of Bryce’s back and stick to “safer” obstacles like jumps, tunnels and weaves.

Saturday was the “traditional” variety. A traditional CPE Jackpot is similar to USDAA Gamblers – there’s an opening “point accumulation” period, then a buzzer sounds and you have a few seconds to complete a distance challenge. There were plenty of point accumulation opportunities that didn’t involve contacts, however there was an A-frame in the distance part.

I was more nervous about Bryce reinjuring himself or having any weird “episodes” than I was about him qualifying. As long as he stayed sound, it knew it was just a waiting game.

Time came for us to run. He dropped the first bar, which totally unnerved me because I can’t REMEMBER the last time he dropped a bar! Then I sent him into a tunnel and he popped back out! He seemed very tentative – like he wasn’t sure he was “allowed” to be doing agility. Either that or he’d forgotten a LOT in the last 3 months!

We got enough points in the opening but he didn’t have the impulsion to go out and complete the distance challenge, so we didn’t qualify, but the sky didn’t fall either. He seemed none the worse for wear and didn’t drop any bars after that first. Game on for Sunday!

Which brings us to the non-traditional. In a non-traditional Jackpot, pretty much anything goes, as defined by the judge. For this one, you had the standard point accumulation period, then when the buzzer sounded you had to do 2 different jumps and a tunnel (in any order) and go to the table without doing anything else. The tricky part was that there were a lot of straight lines heading towards that table, designed to tempt Certain Dogs into throwing in an extra obstacle or two before (or in lieu of) the table!

They were using the same course for all levels, and Bryce was after both Raven and Jayda in the run order, so I had 2 chances to practice.

Raven turned out to be one of those “Certain Dogs” mentioned above, and got sucked into an extra tunnel (and then some!).

With Jayda I did exactly what I planned to do with Bryce and, being Jayda, she did it perfectly, finishing her last Level 4 title.

Finally (after a LONG, nerve-wracking wait after Jayda’s run) it was Bryce’s turn. I *shouldn’t* have been nervous about this run, given the course, but running a dog with serious health issues really ups the bar on the mental game! I was counting on two 5-point jump combos for 10 of his opening points so I had my fingers crossed that the bar-dropping incident of the previous day wouldn’t repeat itself!

He started out really well – a bit faster than the day before. No tunnel popouts, no dropped bars. Got through the 5 point combos, I only needed 3 more points to have enough for the opening. I went to turn him towards a 3 point double …

…and he turned the OTHER way and stuck his NOSE to the mats!! There was a collective gasp from everyone and some (er … MANY) humiliating moments from his youthful days flashed before my eyes!

Fortunately, I got his attention back quickly enough to do the double and a few single jumps for good measure before the buzzer sounded. Then he did his jump-jump-tunnel-table as perfectly as Jayda had :).

In retrospect, it wouldn’t have been a true “Brycey moment” if his evil twin “Bubba” hadn’t put in a cameo appearance!

There was a lot of cheering and a lot of crying. I hugged him for a long time, crying in his fur a little bit, then we did our victory lap. He was obviously happy and faster on his victory lap than on his run – he knew that applause was for him and he was lovin’ every minute of it :)!